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| New Site |
| 06.29.04 (9:41 pm) [edit] |
Well, a project I've been working on for a couple months is finally (almost) completed. Still working on the frames and all, but my new website!
Voila!
http://geocities.com/aptlydemiurgeous" title="http://geocities.com/aptlydemiurgeous" target="_blank"http://geocities.com/aptlydem...
Check it out. :)
Yeah... I don't know where my header is. I can't find the file on my pc, and the old server I had it on is down. So uh, yeah... It'll come back, maybe.
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| Been a while... |
| 06.27.04 (10:41 pm) [edit] |
Wow, haven't done this in like... 2 months.
Don't see why I even bother. My life has become nothing but work and hanging out by myself. Pathetic, eh?
This sure is proving to be a good summer.... :roll:
By the way, to the person who asked about my shirt... Who [i]are[/i] you?
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| Another new layout |
| 04.26.04 (3:27 pm) [edit] |
Well, got bored and made yet another new layout. This one I guess I could call "Sepia Mountains" ??? My new fascination, Canada's Rocky Mountains. Such a thing of beauty. Can't wait 'til I go again this summer. :D
Don't feel like taking the effort in explaining how I'm feeling at the moment. It would take too long, anger some people, and it's not like anyone would read it or care anyways.
Did see an amazing movie on the weekend though. "Thirteen", though the girls don't look, nor especially act like 13 year olds, it's got an amazing story and follows some very real-to-life situations. It's definitely one of my top 3 favourite movies now. :)
It's Tom Welling's 27th birthday today. Whoo-hoo, Happy B-Day Tom!
'Right - that's about it. Bye.
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| Bored |
| 04.23.04 (5:49 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Bored, lonely
Song: "Stabat Mater" composed by Paul Schwartz, performed by Lisbeth Scott (don't ask... it's latin, lol)
Wow, really haven't done this in a *long* time. Not all too sure why. It's not like there's anything going on, really. Normal stuff, I guess. Definitely past the point where I can barely stand to be around the two of *them* anymore. Today at lunch I decided to go hang out with some friends I hadn't talked to in a while instead of sitting and watching the two of *them* oogle over each other and ended up being late for english class since I found out after last bell had gone that Surprise!, you can not hear the bells from outside, no matter if you are only 20 feet from the doors. Oh well, teacher didn't really mind. He was just doing a crossword puzzle and everyone was reading when I came in. A simple "Hey Caitlin, what's up?" and it's all good again. Thank god that he's my fave teacher, I guess. Social Studies has been pretty good lately. I've found myself really easily taking in all the stuff on law and government and whatever. Didn't really interest me before, but it's actually really interesing. Another possible career idea???...
Still no word back from the places I applied to work at this summer. Hopefully soon though. At least my father hasn't been on my back about getting a job this week... Come to think of it, I don't think I've actually talked to my father at all in the past week. Ah, that's good, I guess.
My mom's going away on a business trip to Calgary for a couple days next week...during her birthday. Nice timing, eh? I really want to do something special for her, but I don't know what. It'll be bad enough she'll be away and only my father will be home - though in all actualily, he probably won't actually be home, other than the hours between 1am and 7am, that is. Meh. Whatever.
Seems like everyone's going away this weekend. Wish I could. Kyle's at another volleyball tournament in Winnipeg, so of course I'm stuck here having to hang out with *them* and watch them be all lovey-dovey again... Oh god, kill me now...
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| Boring saturday |
| 04.10.04 (3:08 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Meh
Song: "Overdrive" Katy Rose
So... Saturday. Didn't do much so far. Went shopping with my mom. Picked up some job applications. Sobeys, Tim Horton's, and Staples. Whoo-hoo. Also got an iced-cap at Tim's. Yum. So that was pretty... fun.
Had all our family over last night for easter dinner. My cousins came in from Calgary, it was pretty cool. I got the Cheaper by the Dozen DVD as a gift. Totally awesome movie. :D I love it. My brother got Matrix revolutions, but I haven't watched it since he's got it yet. Maybe tonight or tomorrow, if I'm bored enough (which I probably will be, being continousely ditched by my friends and all. I am invisible to them).
'Right. So I'm off to do... absolutely nothing. Oh, yay. Some long weekend this is.
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| Long weekend |
| 04.08.04 (7:26 pm) [edit] |
Well, considering no one reads this, I guess I can say what I want again? Hmm?
So much for "Hey, let's do something tonight. It'll be fun, it's a long weekend!". That definitely didn't happen... well for them, yes. But no, they forgot about me again. Yeah, okay, phone me when you're done dinner? Guess not, eh? Watching a movie? Oh, but don't worry, don't invite me, that's fine. You have fun. I'll stay here and be a freakin' loner by myself again. No, no, that's okay. You just go and make out with him some more. Yep, oh, I'm fine. Have fun.
Thanks. So here I am. Sitting like a loser, talking to 3 people, sure. 2 are nerds and the other is like 12. Boy, I'm just having the time of my life... They're still watching their movie, I bet, eh?
Fine then. It's a long weekend. It's supposed to be fun. [b]FUN[/b]. So much for that. I'll go hang out with some relatives. Oh, everybody just loves hanging out with relatives.
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Have a nice weekend.
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| Go away |
| 04.07.04 (5:18 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Not good
Song: "Cold Hard Bitch" Jet
Sick. Annoyed. Hating him. Loaded with dumb homework. Lonely in math class. Lonely at lunch. Why isn't he at school? Left waiting in the cold. Stupid store. Yelled at. Need to get a job. Want the sick to go away. Want him to go away.
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| Sheesh |
| 04.01.04 (7:38 pm) [edit] |
Jeez, am I like the only one who does this anymore? Is it not cool enough or whatever for ya'll? Well, whatever. I'll keep "blogging" as long as I wish. I don't care if you read it or not, go have fun, and if you do have something to say to me, then go right ahead and do it in person if that's how you so choose.
Enough said.
So, Thursday. Spring Break's almost over! Ack! I really wish I would have done something of interest at all during the break, but I guess I did just get back from a big trip. Starting to plan our summer one now. Calgary, for sure. My brother and I are working on convincing them on an extra couple hours' drive to Vancouver. :D :D Ooooh, that'd be awesome!! But anyways, I had some fun days, and I had some dull days this past week. It's April now. Which means Spring is near and it's drawing even closer to Summer! Yay, best season of all. :D
So, hopefully everyone else had a good spring break. If not, well, not much I can do to fix that now, is there?
Ta-ta!
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| What a cool Spring Break! |
| 03.30.04 (8:17 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Happy
Song: Anything that the band sang tonight, lol
Whoo! Okay, just got back from the Winter Fair with Kyle. lol, I know, I know. Bunch of cows, horses, pigs, and chickens, with the farmers to match, but whatever. It was still fun. I got to sit next to 5 very, very hot hockey players from the Wheat Kings. (Our WHL team). Ryan Stone, Lance Monych, Reagan Leslie, Stephane Lenoski, and Jeff Topilko. Hehe. Jeff and Stephane were hypnotized at the very hilarious show. Along with two guys from a band that we saw, including a guy, that Kyle and I found out afterwards we know. Aaron something. He's one of Geoff's sister's freinds. He was totally hilarious. And ended up being a really good singer too, when the band had him up with them. Turned out to be an awesome night! Thanks Kyle!
Saw Starsky and Hutch today with Kyle. It was alright. Still pretty funny. (artificial sweetner, lmao!) :) Then also walked around the mall for a bit.
Yesterday I finally got my roller blades out! I love roller blading. But the wind was just so freakin' cold yesterday! Ack! Hopefully it warms up soon (today was nice), 'cause I can't wait to go again. After Kyle and I did that, we ended up coming back to my house where we found some hilarious and very cool messed up spots in the game Halo, where if you go up high enough in a certain level, etc. You can walk around and what-not, but you don't see anything but the layers of the graphics in the distance. It's really weird!
Had someone prank calling my house today. Extremely annoying. Wish I knew who it was.
Anyhoo, here's to another good day tomorrow! :D
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| Bored yet again |
| 03.28.04 (11:37 am) [edit] |
Mood: Very, very bored
Song: "All My Real Friends" High Holy Days
Baaaah!! I'm going nuts from bordem here now, and it's like only the first Sunday of spring break. Ack, that's not good. Really wanna do something with friends, and I'm almost positive they're all already hanging out together, just haven't thought to call me.... happened so many times already in the past couple days, so I'm guessing they don't want me around. I think Kyle's at volleyball, so nothing's gonna happen there.
So here I am. Bored out of my mind. Ran out of anything logical to do. Not going phone them, if they want to do something with me, they can very well pick up the phone - which I doubt they will, so I might as well just shut up.
I think I'll go be a loner and start re-watching Smallville season 1 or something. Or maybe season 3. Only... like 2 months, 'til I get season 2 on dvd. Pfft. I'll go crazy before then. But Cheaper By The Dozen is comming out in like 2 weeks. Whoo-hoo! Ditto with Matrix Revolutions. Speaking of Matrix, made a video for that last night too. That's how bored I was. Yep, yep. I need to seriously get a life. Or a friend who actually likes to do stuff together.
Later.
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| In class |
| 03.26.04 (10:26 am) [edit] |
In class right now, very, very boring. Only a few minutes 'til it's over! Yay!
Okay, I'll go now. This computer is like *so* slow.
See ya'll!
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| new quiz! |
| 03.25.04 (7:42 pm) [edit] |
Yay, here it is!
i n f o r m a t i o n
1. name: Caitlin
2. single or taken: single
3. sex: female
4. birthday: Jan 6, 1989
5. no question? Meh?
6. siblings: Yes, younger brother Kirk
7. hair color: blonde
8. eye color: green-blue, change-a-colour, heh
9. shoe size: 10
10. height: 5'8” or maybe 5’9”
r e l a t i o n s h i p s
1. who are your best friends?: Caiti, Kyle, Geoff, Alex, Katie, Cyndi, Tory, Briana, Allen, … oh no, I better stop.
2. do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: Not right now, nope
f a s h i o n | s t u f f
1. where is your favorite place to shop: Bluenotes or Sportchek
2. any tattoos or piercings: 1 in each ear
s p e c i f i c s
1. do you do drugs?: Nope
2. what kind of shampoo do you use?: Garnier Fructis
3. what are you most scared of?: Uh… bugs? Snakes? Little things that crawl?
4. Another missing question
5. who is the last person that called you?: Caiti
6. where do you want to get married?: Outside in the summer at night with a bunch of white roses and white, bright twinkly lights, surrounding by some beautiful trees and what-not.
7. how many buddies are online right now?: 12
8. what would you change about yourself?: Umm, I don’t like my ears
f a v o r i t e s
1. color: Green
2. food: Caesar salad
3. boys names: Riley, Casey
4. girls names: Jade, Riley, Casey, Aurora, Iris, Lin, Cian, Aciel, Raiden, Kali, Litai, Scylla
5. subjects in school: Graphics, Drafting
6. animals: Penguins, Dogs
7. sports: Volleyball, soccer, hockey
h a v e | y o u | e v e r
1. given anyone a bath?: no
2. smoked?: no
3. bungee jumped?: no
4. made yourself throw up?: no
5. skinny dipped?: no
6: ever been in love?: maybe…
7. made yourself cry to get out of trouble?: lol, not sure
8. pictured your crush naked?: lmao, well… no.
9. actually seen your crush naked?: hehe! No.
10. cried when someone died?: Uh… no, I’m heartless, I think. Known *a lot* of people who’ve died though.
11. lied: Yeah.
12. fallen for your best friend?: no, lol, I know someone who has though. (Hi Caiti, Hi Geoff!)
13. been rejected?: Uh, I dunno
14. rejected someone?: lol, yes… I even did so today… hehe
15. used someone?: Umm, maybe
16. done something you regret?: Most likely
c u r r e n t
clothes: Faded, flare jeans, and a dark brown-grey “Everybody loves a Canadian girl” tee. Hehe, it’s so cool!
music: “The Reason” Hoobastank
make-up: Just the usual little bit
annoyance: Umm, homework
smell: My house?
favorite group: Musical? Hoobastank.
desktop picture: Smallville one I made
book you're reading: Nothing seriously. “Third Eye” or something Eye by Lois Duncan occasionally, though.
cd in player: A mix I made of various bands, mostly no-names that I’ve discovered.
dvd in player: lol, I own one DVD at the moment. X2. Though I have Smallville Season 2 on order from amazon.ca as of yesterday, heheh!
color of toenails: Nothing, now.
l a s t | p e r s o n
you touched: Umm… my mom?
hugged: I can’t remember – it was probably weeks ago.
you imed: Ummm… Caiti? Or Chris G.(Lirot).
you yelled at: My brother
you kissed: lol, Wilson
a r e | y o u
understanding: Usually
open-minded: Sometimes
arrogant: Probably
insecure: Around people I don’t know very well
interesting: I dunno, am I?
random: lol, what?
hungry: No
smart: We’ll see when my report card comes in the mail, lol
moody: Yeah, every so often
hard working: I’d hope so
organized: Yes, very. Well, except for my room sometimes
healthy: As far as I know.
shy: Occasionally
difficult: lol, probably
attractive: Not sure. Am I?
bored easily: Yep
messy: Only as far as my room goes
responsible: Yeah
obsessed: Hehe, which obsession are we talking about? *cough* Vancouver *cough*
angry: Not right now
w h o | d o | y o u | w a n n a
kill: No body. Wait, no. I wouldn’t mind offing Hilary Duff, lol
slap: Umm… no one I can think of.
get really wasted with: lol, no one.
get high with: Never done that before, lol
look like: Why would I tell you? Ah, okay. That Kailyn P. gal at my school. So unfair.
talk to offline: Kyle
talk to online: One of my friends
r a n d o m
in the morning i am: Getting ready for school
all i need is: Music and Smallville and my computer and Vancouver
love is: Rare, but wonderful, I’d assume
i dream about: The stupidest things you can imagine
o p p o s i t e | s e x
what do you notice first: Eyes
last person you slow danced with: Wilson
worst question to ask: Come again?
makes you laugh the most: Kyle or Geoff
makes you smile: This guy I like who’s really, really nice to me, lol
who do you have a crush on: That guy, lol… I may fess up to Caiti someday.
who has a crush on you: Probably no body, lol.
d o | y o u | e v e r
sit on the internet all night waiting for that someone special to im you?: No, I’m not that pathetic. Though I have rushed to my e-mail inbox every day for the past 17 days waiting to see if Wilson has e-mailed me… still hasn’t. L
save conversations: Nope
wish you were a member of the opposite sex?: Nope
wish you were younger: Nah, older maybe. I wanna drive!
cried because someone said something to you?: Umm, my father whenever he’s actually home to say anything to me
N u m b e r
of times i have had my heart broken: Never, really.
of hearts i have broken: None that I know of
of guys ive kissed: One
of girls ive kissed: Eww, none.
of continents i have lived in: Lived in, 1. Visited, 2.
of tight friends: 4. Love ya guys!
of cds i own: Oh god, I’m supposed to know that? Well over 40.
of scars on my body: Never counted, only a couple. The internal bone ones are probably a higher number than outside, lol. Go me and my klumsiness!
F i n a l | q u e s t i o n s
1. do you like fillings these out?: Yeppers!
2. No question…
3. Again…
4. And again…
5. gold or silver: silver
6. what was the last film you saw at the movies?: Oh my god, I used to live at the theatre. But, I’ll say it… The Butterfly Effect, lol. Yes, that was like Jan. 28!
7. favorite cartoon/anime? Spongebob
8. what did you have for breakfast this morning? Alphabits
9. again...it's missing a question here!
10. who would you love being locked in a room with? Hehe, Tom Welling?
11. could you live without your computer? Maybe for a couple weeks… no longer though, lol
12. would you color your hair? Already did once.
13. could you ever get off the computer? Yeah, going to in a couple minutes
14. habla espanol? A bit, lol. Enough to understand most of it if I read it slowly. (Thanks to Wilson, lol)
15. how many people are on your buddy list? 89 on MSN, 25 on AIM
16. drink alcohol? Every once in a while
Okie, me off to bed now!
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| Bored again |
| 03.25.04 (6:28 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Very bored
Song: "Let It Out" Hoobastank
Bah. How boring. I should be doing homework, I guess, but what's the point, really, when that stupid Social Studies project will never be finished on time. Gosh-darned group work.
Made another video. Haven't done that in a long time. But all the movies I wanted to make them for I couldn't find the right file type. Stupid Windows Movie Maker and it's stupidness only letting it allow a certain few stupid files for it's stupid projects. Ugh! So stupid! Anyways, *finally* got one for "Secret Window". I'll send it to ya whenever ya come online, Caiti. Not very long though, must I say. Couldn't find enough video stream. Arg. Think I'll try a Matrix Revolutions one next... :)
Okie, back to being bored now. Ta-ta!
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| New Layout |
| 03.24.04 (5:32 pm) [edit] |
Welcome to my new theme... Vancouver! Yay, yay! Everyone applaud, lol. Yeah, right.
Just a little show of my new found *cough* obsession *cough* of the wonderful city. Oh, I will live there some day... :D
Look for some header changes by the way, I got a couple city scapes to play with, heh.
Edit: Ah! Smallville's on and I'm not watching it. Oh crap!
[i]*runs off to turn on the WB*[/i]
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| I love Hoobastank! |
| 03.24.04 (4:43 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Just fine, thanks
Song: "The Reason" Hoobastank
Okie, first off. Hoobastank's latest album is kick-ass!! :D :D :D Love it.
And yay, the weather lately has been so nice. Just lovely, heh. Though I could do without the puddles making a big mess everywhere. Blah.
School is freakin' hectic. I can't wait 'til Spring Break next week. I mean, all the teachers suddenly flip and decide to assign a bunch of stuff. Got a group project on the Chinese coming to Canada for Social Studies. Though for the reason that it's a group project, I hate it. Especially assigned group projects. I mean, no communication is made and we're all off doing whatever and it's due tomorrow at the end of class and we're not even near half-done. Still researching. Oh god. Math is pretty horrid. The server for the computers is like *always* down for the first half of class, the printer never works when I need it to, and I can't figure out the payment thingy on spreadsheets for our stupid project that is due on Friday before we have a big test on Exel. ugh! Math is the only class I shut up and never talk in - probably for the fact I still don't know anyone. Doubt I ever will, might I add. But only like, 3 or 4 months left. Whoo-hoo. Typing is cool. Got the 2nd-highest mark in my class on a test and I'm *finally* caught up after being away, lol. So thank god for that. It's one of my easier to do classes, but my marks aren't very high by any means. Uh oh. English, ughhhhh!!! Stupid Shakespeare and his crazy books. We got assigned to write an essay today that is due on Friday, about the stupid characters. I can't even figure out who the hell is who, let alone what they're actually talking about. That'll sure be fun, lol. We can't even take it home over Spring Break. Graphics is fun!!! Today, Katie, Briana and I got to take pictures of each other with a digital camera and then mess around with them on a computer. I made Katie look like a stoned cat, Briana was a chipmunk, and I was a warped Harry-Potter wannabe. hehe. And since the teacher said he's run out of stuff for us to do for now, we're gonna watch movies in class, lol. Whoo!
Okay, so school isn't that bad. Homework is. I hate homework. :P And group work. Blaaah!! :x
Okie, uh, talk to ya'll later! Man, I feel like such a loser lately. Just been staying home from right after school to the morning before I go to school, lol. Whatever. Dang, I wish Kyle lived closer. We gotta go rollerblading soon, eh Kyle? Got your new blades yet? :)
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| Puddles |
| 03.18.04 (8:35 pm) [edit] |
Oh god, did it now. Slipped on the ice and went for a swim. :o Yep, that's it. I dived into a puddle.
Go me!! heh. :oops:
Okay, seriously. It was hilarious! :lol:
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| hola |
| 03.13.04 (10:31 pm) [edit] |
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Hey Sara, how's it hangin'? lol, seeing as you read this and all. Pimpette, heh. Yeah, whatever. :roll:
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| 03.12.04 (8:36 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Foul (watch out)
Song: "Mi Ley" La Ley (yeah, it's spanish)
Okay, so isn't life just great lately? Oh, yeah, sure is. School-wise it's fine. Got all my marks in my classes above 85, confident in the classes I chose for next year, don't have any homework, even though I thought I would after my trip - Am in fact ahead of most people in my classes, made some good friends in those classes too. Which is great, because a couple of my friends lately haven't been the greatest.
Just a shout-out to Kyle, by the way. Thanks for the normalcy in everything - It's been very appreciated. :) See ya this weekend, hopefully!
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| Back home |
| 03.08.04 (2:52 pm) [edit] |
Yep, I'm back. Had an AMAZING time in the Dominican. Met some great people... including a great guy named Wilson. He worked at the resort I stayed at, and well - okay, now I know what it feels like to like someone and have them like you back (even more so). Had my first kiss with him too - it was amazing. Wow. I just really, really miss him now.
Wish I was back on the island now. Everything here is so freakin' stressful. Have to register for next year's classes at school, but have no idea what to pick. Or how many to pick, or what kind of math to pick. Wish they would offer spanish - learned a bit of that while I was away, 'cause Wilson taught me. It's his first language (yes, he's dominican), but he also knew English and a fair bit of German and French. But I suck at french, and spanish is cool ... though they're really a LOT alike. Anyways, my school doesn't offer Spanish, so I have no idea what else to take. I hate school. I have so much work to catch up on, and I have no idea what anyone is talking about in any of my classes or the field trips and all that craptastic stuff that's going on.
Still completely awkward around a certain couple of my friends - they've obviously gotten even closer while I was away. Good for them.
Angry at myself for one thing. I think I screwed myself over while I was away with Wilson. 'Cause he's a LOT older than me... like, okay 9 years older if anyone can figure that out. And now all the guys I thought were hot at school just seem so young and plain and ugh... yeah, go me. Messed everything all up again.
Whatever, I'm going to go start on my homework - maybe. I hate school now, I don't even care how I do.
Missing him.
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| Off to the Carribean! |
| 02.19.04 (4:30 pm) [edit] |
Near done packing now!
I'll talk to you guys when I get back on the 8th.
Miss ya'll! :D
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| heh |
| 02.18.04 (6:08 pm) [edit] |
Smallville. :D :D :D :D :D
Is it a bad thing it was just the highlight of my week so far?, lol.
Yeah, I'd say so.
Carribean day after tomorrow! Whoo!
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| song |
| 02.16.04 (5:39 pm) [edit] |
Good lyrics, correct time line to now. Too bad there isn't anyone out there to whom this song could go to.
[b]"February 1994" Fisher[/b]
February 1994
- coldest Valentine L.A.’s ever known
All I gave you were tears without a cause
And I don’t know why I could not say
the words inside my heart
I need you
You are my life - I love you
Heaven is mine - I want you I…want you I…
Hear me
More than my life I love you
More than the sky I need you I…want you I…
All your roses - faded from the light –
hang in my window to remind me of the night
I said nothing and you faded away
I’d give anything
to take back all the things I didn’t say
I want you
More than the sun I need you
Heaven is mine - I want you I…want you I…
Hear me
You are my life - I love you
More than the sky I need you I…want you I…
And I know that if you’d come to me
Like you did before I’d love you
-swear I would always need you
You are my life
I’d want you I – I’d need you I…
Hear me
More than my life I’d love you
More than the sky I’d need you I…I want you I…
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| Great... |
| 02.16.04 (2:50 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Alone
Song: "Wonderwall" Ryan Adams
Today wasn't a very good day. I guess it was just like any other. Well, there was a pep rally for hockey, but it was downright horrible. After school, now, keeps getting worse. I couldn't stand it. I had to leave, even though they probably think I'm a bitch now. Whatever, it's what I deserve.
It can all be forgotten - just 4 more days.
Ditto to everything mentioned in the previous blog.
[i]PS- Suddenly missing 100 more tbucks. I sent some to someone, but for some reason 200 went away instead of 100. Kinda annoying.[/i]
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| Need to get away |
| 02.14.04 (8:46 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Bored, and quickly reaching that undesirable point
Song: "I Will Love You" Fisher
Valentine's day. Whoo-pee. All that happened was 4 hours of homework, some more packing for my trip, some cleaning, and playing with my neighbour's dog. I'm such a loser, aren't I?
Geoff and Caiti went to see 50 First Dates. I really wanted to see that, but I doubt I will now. Oh well. Good for them.
At the moment I'm bored out of my mind, and quickly reaching that depressed/sad point that comes up every Valentine's day. Found myself downloading a lot of really slow, sad songs at the moment, in place of the loud rock. Oh, yay.
I honestly can't wait to get away to the Carribean. To not have to deal with everyone here (well, other than my family, but I can just go off and lay on the beach or something by myself to avoid them). I won't have to feel uncomfortable around my two once-best friends. Won't need to mope around being a loner, spending entire days doing lame, nerdy crap. I'll be far, far away from it all. Heck, maybe we'll get stranded there and I won't ever have to come back here again. I'd be fine with that. I hate it here.
Lyrics from some good songs I just downloaded. Pretty good.
[b]"Here Nor There" Andy Stochansky[/b]
Did you ever want to go
leave love to those who know
did you ever say
i stopped in the middle
or the fear of being hurt
the one you loved could be so curt
and then you say i'm stuck in the middle
so remember this
it's from now it was the kiss
from the day you were
stuck in the middle
did you ever close your eyes
did you let him walk by
think to yourself
this is going nowhere
did you ever need to know
if he could love you so
but then you said
this is going nowhere
so remember this
it's from now it was the kiss
on the day you were
stuck in the middle
please don't pretend
not tonight, not at ever
please don't pretend
not tonight, not ever
please don't pretend
this will not end..
did you ever need to know
if he could love you so
but then he says i'm stuck in the middle
but then he says i'm stuck in the middle
but then he says..
[b]"I Will Love You" Fisher[/b]
`Til my body is dust
`til my soul is no more
I will love you, love you
`Til the sun starts to cry
and the moon turns to rust
I will love you, love you
But I need to know - will you stay for all
time...forever and a day
Then I`ll give my heart `til the end of all
time...forever and a day
`Til the storms fill my eyes
and we touch the last time
I will love you, love you...
[b]"Inflatable" Bush[/b]
let it slide
overhead
when i believe in you
my soul can rest
but our love
it's really love
it never fades
but fade it does
when we shine
like the sun
you seem the only one
my only friend
so pretty in white
pretty when you're faithful
so pretty in white
pretty when you're faithful
when you're faithful
i resigned
from myself
took a break
was someone else
it's like i've come undone
and i've only just become
inflatable for you
i don't mind
most of the time
but you push me so
far inside
The funny thing is, I'm not in love. I don't love anybody. There is no one to feel such way about.
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| Friday! :) |
| 02.13.04 (9:55 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Content
Song: "Rawkfist" Thousand Foot Krutch
Yay for Friday. It was actually pretty cool. Had a totally awesome hypnotist at school today - honestly, the most hilarious thing I've ever seen. Wow.
Played some Twister after school with Geoff and Caiti. What a cool game. Took some pictures with the camera Caiti gave me for my b-day. So that's cool.
And now... I'm bored. Oh, yay. Tomorrow's valentine's day, but I'll be spending it doing homework, I guess. Whoo-pee. :roll:
Less than a week 'til I go on my trip. Yay! :D
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"'Twixt truth and madness lies but a sliver of a stream"
-Hamlet, Shakespeare
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"I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone."
-The Shawshank Redemption
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"We all start off wanting to change the world, but in the end the only thing that matters is changing one person's world."
-Unknown
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