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| Meh. |
| 11.29.03 (6:35 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Just there
Song: "Hurt" Nine Inch Nails
I'm so loving this song right now. Sure it's depressing, but it fits my mood.
[i]I hurt myself today
to see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
the only thing that's real
the needle tears a hole
the old familiar sting
try to kill it all away
but I remember everything
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
I wear my crown of shit
on my liar's chair
full of broken thoughts
I cannot repair
beneath the stain of time
the feeling disappears
you are someone else
I am still right here
what have I become?
my sweetest friend
everyone I know
goes away in the end
you could have it all
my empire of dirt
I will let you down
I will make you hurt
if I could start again
a million miles away
I would keep myself
I would find a way[/i]
Nice, eh? Yeah, well for some reason I was in a pissy mood today. Not quite sure why. I had everyone over at my house (no idea how that happened - they were all over last night too), and yet for most of the duration of their stay, I just wanted them to leave. I had no ideas on what to do to amuse their time - I never do - yet they were obviously depending on me to come up with something. But it didn't happen. I played around on the XBox hard drive for a while, downloaded a CD onto it and all, while they just threw pillows at each other. I even started vaccuming at one point. Pissed the whole time, but still unsure why.
Maybe it had something to do with earlier. I had been playing single-player Halo, trying to beat the last two levels on my own, then Geoff came over and I apparently was taking too slow for him and wasn't going the right directions throughout the ship. So oh, there comes Geoff, butts in and completes the game on my file. Gee, thanks. A normal person wouldn't have minded, I guess. But I'm independant, alright. I like doing things for myself by myself. The fact he just went and did it all, hardly giving me a chance since as soon as I died once, he was there, really annoyed me. He offered it back to me at one point, but I mean - there was all but 20 seconds left in the final level. What's the point in that? If he was having fun, then whatever. Another thing that ruined it was the fact he hit me ... really hard. I really shouldn't be complaining because I playfully hit him all the time, and he like never hits back (hello, what kind of guy hits a girl anyways?), but it happened. I even started crying, what a wimp I am, huh? Yeah, yeah - go ahead, laugh at little ol' me. I know you all want. But anyways.
Getting kicked out of my own house again tonight, since my parents are throwing another party. Hopefully someone will let me come over to their house, even though I'd much rather just stay by myself here on the computer - find something to do, eventually. But that won't happen because if I stayed home during the party, I'd be up in my room for like 6 hours until I finally fell asleep - or just went to sleep right at 8 or so when the people start coming over. Lame eh? I mean it's a Saturday night.
Have to go hang around with two other friends of mine tomorrow. They're nice and all, just wacky, and they have a ton of friends who are all really popular people that I don't know too well and always feel uncomfortable around. Not too sure why - I guess I'm not good enough for them anymore. Used to be popular and hang out with the "cool group", but not so much no more. Yeah, that's High School for ya. But yeah, the three of us are working on a science project and ended up leaving it 'til practically the last minute. We still need to go to the mall and buy everything we need, and then make the project, model and all. Oh yay. How early will I have to get up for that? I'd love to just sleep in 'til noon. Like I tried to do today, but my cousins came out from their farm to visit for a bit. Yippee. :roll:
'Right well I'm seriously going to shut up now. No idea why I babble off to this blog thing anyways. There's really no point.
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| 11.27.03 (8:49 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Reaching extreme bordem
Song: "So Far Away" Staind
Well, after talking for almost 2 hours on the phone with Geoff, in a conversation which I'm sure bored him to death, being that all we did was lay in the dark in our rooms and/or watch tv, I have to say - I'm still bored. Began calling him because I had well, nothing to do. No point in doing math homework - it'll take me maybe 20 minutes, and I have all english tomorrow free since the teacher is going to be away and said he didn't want to assign anything new. So I'll do it then - it's not due 'til Monday.
So - life lately. Norm, I guess. School's the usual. Math is fairing between really easy and really hard each day. But thank god that other teacher is gone - she annoyed me so much. We have our usual teacher back again. What a cool guy. Gym is alright. My arm is killing me, damn badminton. I got paired with this really cute guy in doubles. He reminds me a lot of a comic book character I've seen before. Can't remember the name of it though. Anyways, he's a funny guy. We ended up winning 3 games and losing 3 in the tournament. So oh well. Science we haven't done like anything. Started a space unit and have been working on planet projects. Me and two friends have Jupiter. Yay for Jupiter. English, is well, English. And Drafting - meh, continuing on with the models. So yeah, that's school.
Those girls that attacked Caiti last week were back today. Everything's been going okay so far. The one is being really friendly to Caiti - it's kinda creepy. Hopefully it'll pass.
Umm, got my passport pic taken the other night. Ugh, it looks horrible, lol. In Canada, you're not allowed to smile in the pic - which sucks royally. But at least my pic turned out to be better than my parents' and my brother's, lol. My brother looks like he's stoned.
So uh, snow. Been doing that a LOT here lately. I'm amazed at how much snow we've gotten in such a short time. Like a week or so. It's crazy how fast Christmas is coming up. I can't believe the time flew by so quickly like that. It's nuts.
Well, uh, anyways. I think I'll shut up and go find something to do. Oh!
Note for Geoff, Caiti, Kyle, Alex - I finally slightly updated my site of us all. (It Happens). Changed the colours and stuff - I'll get those tree pics up eventually. I just need to figure out how to work my scanner - hopefully get a graphic program... that's what I'll ask for for Christmas :) hehe. Anyways, link is up on the left here - under It Happens.
Okie dokie. Tootaloo!
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| Story done |
| 11.26.03 (7:10 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Creative
Song: "Adrenaline" Gavin Rossdale
Well, well, well. A lovely boring Wednesday night. No new episodes of Smallville 'til January, which majorly sucks. So instead I continued writing what I said I would begin in my previous blog entry.
Came up with this. It isn't very cheerful, I must warn you, but then again, nothing I ever write is very positive, lol. It's just uploaded on a fiction site, but you can check it out here:
[url=]http://www.fictionpress.com/r...[/url]
Please tell me what ya think, I loved getting feedback. :)
I think I'll go see if The OC is on. Talk to ya'll later!
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| 11.23.03 (2:00 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Bored
Song: "Do This Anymore" Nickelback
Bordem. It's what has defined this weekend. A long weekend at that, since we had Friday off school. I didn't accomplish anything, unless you count completing 8 levels in Halo on XBox, downloading a bunch of music, and getting those concert tickets. I did and am doing nothing. I feel like writing, but I don't know what to write. I should just start with words. What ever words come to me. See where that goes. Probably not far, but there's no hurt in trying.
Am a little embarrassed with myself for the way I've been acting since I heard about the concert tickets I got. Obviously the seating map I saw must be wrong, and the stage is elsewhere. I guess I just won't saying anything more about it until I see the definite map. Still angers me a fair bit though.
Parents are busy booking stuff for another family vacation in February. This time we're going to the Dominican Republic. I've been reading up on it and it sounds okay. Many precautions to take, since it is a third world country. Things like water, food, money, jewelry, valuables, etc. Oh well, it should be fun. Got to send out for passports tomorrow. Don't know why we didn't do that earlier, they may take a while. Finally booked flights. Not very good because for round trip from Winnipeg to Puerto Plata, it'll cost $1670/person. Not cheap. But we get to have the friday before off school, to drive to Winnipeg, catch a plane to Toronto, spend the night in Toronto and then fly to Puerto Plata the next day. Vice versa the way back. Toronto, yay. Never been there before. So anyways, I can't wait to go - get to leave this cold hell and stay a couple weeks on a warm, tropical beach.
Well, I'm gonna go write a bit now. See ya'll.
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| Ughh!!! |
| 11.22.03 (11:41 am) [edit] |
Mood: F*cking pissed off
Song: "I Hate Everything About You" Three Days Grace
I'm sorry, and no offence to anyone who has any relation to what I'm about to say - I don't blame you, and I really do *not* want this to be repeated around everywhere.
But yes, I am so pissed off right now. Why? Well, Nickelback, Three Days Grace, and Staind are coming to this little city. Most amazing thing that's happened in years, in my opinion. Been going nuts the past week in anticipation for the tickets, because I love all three of those bands.
Come this morning, when the tickets go on sale, I was to get 4 tickets for my parents, my brother, and my aunt online at ticketmaster. Waited all but 5 minutes, and then actually got to hand pick out where the best place for the tickets would be. Just so happened, I got the best tickets you could probably get, according to a seating map. So that's fine, they got awesome spots thanks to me.
Now for my ticket. A friend of a friend was going to buy a bunch of them together. They went to the arena at 7am this morning, stood in line for hours and hours... the tickets they got are spread out everywhere, in the crappiest spots you can imagine. The sections they're in were even blocked out on the seating map, because hello - that's backstage!! The ticket I get ends up being right up against a god damned wall, seeing nothing but nothing! It couldn't get any worse!
So yes, something I've been freaking out over was just ruined. I'll have some of the best tickets in my hand in about a week once they come in the mail, and I have the option of using one - but no, it'll leave whoever I ended up sitting beside alone.
UGHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
:evil:
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| new quiz thing |
| 11.21.03 (5:57 pm) [edit] |
1. What's your name: Caitlin
2. What do you wish your name was, instead: Jade
3. How are you: Been better
4. Would you ever eat sushi?: Yeah, alright
5. Would you ever eat sushi off a naked body?: Umm, not really - depends who the person was
6. Have you considered homosexuality?: Nope
7. What's your sexual preference?: Umm, I'm fine being straight
8. What were you in a past life?: Someone artistic (or so a previous quiz says)
9. I punch you. Quick, what do you do?: Block, maybe hit back if I'm angry enough
10. When confronted with Britney Spears, you...?: Say "Wow, cool. Hi!"
11. What's your favourite coffee?: Mocha
12. What's your political perspective?: Politics are boring
13. Are you my Angel?: Nope
14. Do you consider yourself a poet?: Ahh, sometimes, sure. I like to write poetry
15. What do you wanna be when you grow up?: Architect, graphic designer, maybe a writer
16. There's a naked man in your living room. What do you do?: Um, ask what the hell he was doing there
17. How stupid do you think you are?: Moderately
18. How stupid do other people think you are?: People may think I'm smart, but I'm just average
19. Who the hell do you think you are?: No one important and a lousy friend
20. Is the Wonderbra good or bad?: Meh?
22. What's your favourite fruit?: Cantelope
23. Can you feel the love tonight?: Nope
24. On a nude beach, you would...?: Be wearing clothes and trying to find the nearest exit
25. Make up a story with yourself, a bridge, and a rabbit: There once was a girl named Caitlin. She was sad a lonely. One day she came across a rabbit. The rabbit asked "Why are you so sad?". Caitlin replied, "Because I let down my best friend". The rabbit nods. "Well, come follow me to to hell, it's where you belong. Just across this bridge here." Caitlin sadly walks to her death across the bridge with the rabbit, who laughs at her stupidity. The End.
26. What do you think about contemporary art?: Some of it is cool, some of it is weird, but I'd love to have a house filled with it eventually.
27. Do you like being naked?: Not overly
28. If we had proof god didn't exist, what would happen?: Life might make a little sense, though it may also screw up some people's beliefs.
29. Do you enjoy cheeze whiz?: It's alright.
30. What's your position on virginity?: Huh?
31. On civil unions: I guess they need to happen.
32. On RuPaul: What?
33. On mosquito bites: Freakin' annoying.
34. On bad sitcoms: Waste of time
35. On Fran Drescher: Who?
36. Are you left handed or right handed?: Right-handed
37. Are you smart?: Not really
38. What's your middle name?: Marie
39. How many personalities do you have?: Lost count
40. How many piercing do you have?: One in each ear
41. What was your first word?: No idea, really.
42. Are you superstitious?: Sometimes
43. Do you read your horoscope?: Sometimes
44. Do you believe in that stuff?: Well, it has come true for me before, lol.
45. Can you do a cartwheel?: Yeah
46. Do you have contact lenses?: Yes
47. Do you have a retainer or braces?: never needed them, hehe
48. Can you drive?: In a couple months
49. Do you snore?: Don't think so
50. Do you drool in your sleep?: No
51.Do you lick your envelopes or use a sponge?: A sponge
52. Do you keep a journal?: If this blog counts, yes
53. Do you like onions?: They're okay cooked
54. Do you like cotton candy?: Occasionally, but not too much of it
55. What instruments can you play?: Keyboard/piano
56. Do you like to dance?: Not really
57. Do you like to sing?: Only when no one's around
58. Are you any good at it?: Not overly
59. Do you like to talk on the phone?: Sure
60. Do you like where you live?: Not at all - the people are the only good thing
61. Are you organized?: Yeah, fairly
62. Do you sleep with socks on?: No
63. Are you shy?: Around new people
64. Do you talk to yourself?: Sometimes
65. Are you a morning person?: Yeah, when I'm up, I'm up and ready to roll =)
66. Are you a virgin?: Yeah
67. Are you proud of that?: Uh, I dunno
68. Do you believe in reincarnation?: Sorta
69. Do you believe in God?: Only occassionally - everything on earth and all the people didn't appear outta nowhere, right?
70. Do you believe in ghosts?: No
71. Do you believe in bigfoot?: No
72. How old do you wish you were?: 17 and a half, so I could have a full drivers license
73. What will you name your daughter?: Casey, Starr, Riley
74. Son?: Riley, Casey
75. Have you ever thought you were gonna die?: Umm, a couple times
76. Where do you wanna go?: Someplace warmer - even Vancouver :)
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| 11.20.03 (3:35 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Weirded out
Song: "Don't Fear The Reaper" Gus
Alright, well this morning was the scariest morning I've ever had school-wise. I haven't even been in high school for 3 whole months, and I spent half an hour in the principals office today. It started in my math class, I was there for all but 10 minutes, trying to make up a list of all that we were doing so Caiti would know what she had missed, and suddenly the secretary called me away from class. Okay first off, I felt like an idiot because I was like "Where is the principal?" "The office". Oh. Duh. Echoing chants of "Caitlin's in trouble!" followed me as I left the room and continued the walk to the office. Once there, was taken into a smaller office where I spent 30 minutes talking with a vice principal about what all went down yesterday and writing out a page and a half of my account of what happened. I was so nervous, I just wanted to die. Anyways, as I left, I saw Kyle sitting in the office next to the one I was in - he too was writing his version out. Found out later - all of us, I think 8 or so, plus the 2 who did it, ended up having to go to the office that day. Ended up missing my math class, so I don't know what happened to tell Caiti (failed her again there). Was too distracted to pay attention for my PE test, and ended up writing gibberish at the last minute - I most definitely failed that. Was chased by one of the bad girls after gym - managed to get away by running into a big crowd of people. Was followed again after leaving the washroom by them at break, again lost them by entering a big crowd. Science I was continued to be questioned about where Caiti was - I wish people would just leave it alone, leave her alone and forget about the stupid fight. But it didn't happen - I was constantly lying to people, cried once, hugged a bunch of people. Man, today sucked. The rest of the day went by in a blur. I really didn't talk much at all. By the afternoon, things were a bit better because those 2 girls weren't there. But all in all - I hated today almost as much as I hated yesterday. Now I have no idea where Caiti is, and I really want to know how she's doing. We're all going to do something tomorrow together - try and get her mind off of it, cheer her (and ourselves) up if possible.
Why is life so hard?
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| 11.19.03 (8:37 pm) [edit] |
I take back everything I said in my previous blog. Today was definitely the worst day I've had in . . . well, god only knows. Months, probably. Hell, maybe even more. I am officially the most selfish being on this planet. I hate myself for what I did - or shall I say what I didn't do. I mean who seriously stands there and watches their best friend get beat up for 20 minutes. Both physically and verbally. I'm a horrible person. A completely, utterly disgusting individual.
Nothing but a cruel bitch...
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| 11.18.03 (5:01 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Selfish
Song: "Stupid Girl" Cold
Selfish. It's what I am. It's why I'm so cruel. It's why I don't give a damn. It's why my best friend will soon hate me ... It's why I hate myself. The friend is going through some tough times with some girl at school, and for some reason, it isn't sparking a real, kind reaction in me. Instead, all I feel is - whatever, no big deal. 'Cause in my mind, in my head right now, I think it is. That's how selfish I am. She's probably totally freaked out and wants to I dunno, die, and here I am not giving a damn. Why, you all ask? Because last spring I had the same thing happen - though yet again, in my mind, "quite a few" times worse. Yes, I had to sit through class after class of having the same 11 girls surround me, discuss, verbally disect, and threaten me. Threaten me with my life. I can still remember their harsh words. Echoing in my ears, in my head. "Should take her f*cking blonde hair, wrap it around her neck and watch her eyes pop out", "Get a plastic bag and cover her head with it so she can't breathe - I think I heard that the dying bitch actually will twitch when that happens", "Even better, take these scissors here and slice her face, her arms, her neck. Watch her bleed, and die in misery"... "Oh look at that, the stupid f*ck is gonna cry. You gonna cry bitch?", "Why don't you go run to your mommy, you spoilt rich whore? Better go run to the bathroom, only wimps cry." Their menacing laughs, their evil looks, continuing on for days. But I couldn't do anything. Too shy to tell a teacher. Too embarassed to tell my parents. Too much of a f*cking freak to put my trust in anyone after saying the wrong thing about someone and having it spread to the wrong people.
That, is why my best-friend. The very best friend I've *ever* had probably hates my living guts. I'm hardly doing a thing to help her out right now, because I'm a selfish witch. Satan. The devil. Hell, my best-guy-friend even said it himself. I'm evil. I don't deserve these people. Their company. Their friendly words. Because I can't help thinking negative thoughts around them. I was naive to not see it coming. It's all my life has been - sure, many friends, but they only last maybe a year or so at a time. It's 'cause they know it - they know I'm a bitch. It's all just a disguise at first, until they get to know me - get to know my horrible personality. Everything I do, I do it so that people will notice me, pay attention to me, feel sorry for me. I'm a sap-case. I know it. It's exactly what I'm doing right now. I'm babbling on and on.
Enough of the excuses. I'm not going to try and back up my evil ways with the versions of why I acted the way I did. It's what I deserve. It's all I ever deserve. I don't deserve love from no one.
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| Crazy Wednesday's |
| 11.12.03 (7:04 pm) [edit] |
Mood: Content
Song: "Got Some Teeth" Obie Trice
Wednesday! Yay, it was Smallville night. The episode seemed kinda short - and I mean, it was pretty anti-Clark/Lana. Which sucks, royally, I have to say. For god's sakes, she even held him at gun point. Superman or not, it definitely didn't add up to a very happy Clark/Lana episode. Oh well. It was still okay. Next's weeks though. Whooaaaaaaaaaa!!!!!!! Oh my god! I cannot wait for that! :D
So, school today was alright. We started weight training in gym today. I'm so weak and my arm was killing me - it still is (for those who don't remember, I severly damaged a muscle about a month ago in my arm). Okay, so like obviously the teacher doesn't care. But I mean, my arm is throbbing - I could hardly even bench press 20 something pounds! Hello, weak, right? Ugh, I don't know if I'll last another 4 days )one more day this week, 3 next week). I think I'm going to start to seriously complain to someone soon, lol. I'm hating gym class now - it used to be so fun! Well, mostly.
Science just sucked. Funny at first, but then getting to the point where I wanted to kick something, we had 5 fire bells! Well, 4 we actually went outside in. And I mean, it was freezing!! We do have snow here. Like, ugh! How gay! We've now had about 17 fire bells this year. A little extreme, no? Our science teacher was hilarious though. He started getting really mad after a while. He even kicked a desk, lol. It was so funny. And I mean, he was getting cold so by the 3rd bell he was going outside wearing a lab coat - he looked like such a nut. But I mean, he's a cool guy. Ya gotta love Mr. B.
Lunch was pretty nuts. We started off with just four of us, Caiti, Geoff, Kyle, and I. Well, not even Kyle actually - he went down the hall some with some other people. Within like 20 minutes, there was seriously over 20 people all sitting and hanging out by us. What's with that!! As cool as it was having everyone there (all these people like us or something?), it got really, really annoying. Geoff definitely wasn't having fun (awww), but luckily the bell finally rang and they all left.
After school, nothing special. After Smallville tonight, Geoff (what a sweet guy!) made cookies and ran across the road to give one to Caiti and I. I have to say, they were sooooo good. He's such a great cook. Which is a good thing, because Caiti and I seriously can't, lol. But yeah, Geoff's so nice! :D
And on another happier note - I get my X-Box tomorrow!! Whoo-hooo!! Finally! :D I like, so cannot wait. Gonna be awesome.
So yeah, I think I'm done babbling now, hehe. Ta-ta!!
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| 11.10.03 (7:56 pm) [edit] |
And MORE quizes:
Aww, jeez. What's with these quizes - they think I'm all depressed like . . . I don't think I am, am I? Maybe it's denial...
Your Blood Color Is Blue. You Are Lonely, Sad, And
Like To Be By Yourself.
What Color Blood Do You Have?
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Lol! Sure, okay. I wish, hehe:
! You are Most Like A Ruby !
Passionate, in control - and very sexy. You tend to
be more dominant, and people long to possess your
wild nature. People find you fun, and a real live
wire.
You're most like a Ruby because people simply can't
take their eyes away from you - your bright
captivating
nature draws people to you.
Congratulations ... You're the sparkly fun gem
everybody craves.
?? Which Precious Gem Are You ??
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I'm a fish!
*bulges out eyes and makes fishy lips*
*sees everyone slowly backing away*
. . . Yeah, okay, I know. I'll stop:
Fish
?? Which Creature Of The Sea Are You??
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lmao, alright:
You're living the movie Scream!
?? Which Horror Movie Are You Living ??
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| 11.09.03 (10:33 am) [edit] |
Mood: Exhausted and tired
Song: "Don't Come Down" Obie Trice
Well, went to see Matrix: Revolutions last night. Wow! What a kick-ass movie! :D Definitely one of my top 3, although it was a little confusing (then again, which Matrix movie *isn't* confusing, lol).
Had a fairly exciting night last night too. At about 2:30am, the Carbon Monoxide detector started screeching (I mean screeching, holy crap that thing's loud). The CO level was at 719 . . . it should be 0. Not a good thing. We were all feeling a little dizzy. So as soon as that thing went off, we were up, my parents called the gas company and we ended up having to turn off the furnace (despite it being like -25 C outside), and open all the windows and doors and whatever. It was frickin' freezing! A guy from the gas company came and had to stay for over an hour because he had to wait for the level to go back down to 0. And why did it happen, you're probably wondering? Well, along with having the furnace going, my dad had the gas fireplace going for like 6 hours, my mom was doing laundry using the dryer, and was vacuming at one point. Added to the dry air because of the cold outside, and you have a very weakly operating fresh air intake system going, lol. Basically, we couldn't get fresh air into the house because so much air was being used. Not smart. Anyways, after a very cold night with very few hours of sleep, everything's basically returned to normal, I guess. Though I still have a headache. Yay for CO. (err, that's the scientific formula term for Carbon Monoxide. 3 atoms Carbon for every 1 atom oxygen . . . or something like that, lol).
Did some quizes now too. Strange results in all of them:
Hey, cool! I think... Well, I somehow managed to get a lot of money, lol. And there are a hundred people there... but I dunno, being sewn up in a bag and tossed away? Gee, thanks for that, whoever did it. Less than 32 years until that day comes - better start having some fun ;):
lol, okay. Guess my life ain't exciting, eh? Go figure:
My life is rated PG.
What is your life rated?
Hehe, alright then:
ANGRY EYES
What kind of anime eyes do you have? (picture results)
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Uh **cough, cough** yeah:
lonely
What is your reason for suicide?(with images)
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Man, and I even suck at it and everything, even after 4 years of piano:
Playing Music
What is your strong point?(pics)
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Samuel L. Jackson in love with Samuel L. Jackson . . . uh, kinky?:
*blinks*:
SUICIDAL BITCH
You are a depressed child. You need some laughter
in your life. Why, you ask? Cause that frown
don't look good on you, hun!
(results contain pictures) What type of bitch are you?
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Meh, okay:
Which deadly sin do you represent? (Angel Sanctuary Pics)
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| 11.08.03 (6:55 pm) [edit] |
Here's some more I did just now while I'm killing time before going to see Matrix: Revolutions. :D
I guess it's a good thing...
You have the eyes of a hawk. You're very much aware
about your surroundings and the situations that
you're in. People can't touch your things
because you would immediately notice what's
been touched or what's missing. You can analyze
people's thoughts and actions quite well.
That's good for you. Don't lose that sharp
vision of yours.
What Animal Eyes Do You Have?
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Eh, what? Missed my ass.
Yes, you will always be remembered for your good
ways. You seem to be close and caring around
your family and other people you really know.
You will be a major loss for them. There will
be an empty spot once you are gone. It may
sound morbid to you, but it could also be good.
Keep on with your great ways. You will have a
beautiful funeral.
What Type of Funeral Will You Have? Will You Be Missed Once You're Gone?
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Yay!! I'm not a psycho!
You really would not kill anyone because you find
human life to be valuable. It's just not in
you. If you slew someone, it would be by
accident or out of defense. That's good for
you. You know that people live their own lives,
and you live yours. Killing is bad. Very bad.
Unless of course, you're in a situation where
you must.
WHY Would You KILL Someone?
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Hehe, okay:
Your serial killer name would be Diablo! You would
be a mastermind in what you do. You would come
up with perfect plans on how to do your bad
stuff, and send out your minions to do it for
you. That would prevent you from getting
caught, because for one reason, they would not
rat you out. Your real name might not be known
and you would be greatly wanted, because as
long as you're out on the hidden streets, there
will still be danger! You're the big guy/girl!
What Would Your Serial Killer Name Be? What Would the Public Know You As?
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lmao!! Yeah, okay:
Angel
Seriously...How evil are you REALLY?
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Good to know considering there are some really good tasting alcohal's, lol:
You seem like you won't even get drunk as much. You
drink moderately and most likely on special
occasions. If you feel yourself getting over
the limit, you would try to control yourself.
And if you were a bit tipsy, most likely you
would get some rest. You're a person who can
control your actions and are very responsible.
You are careful in what you do and like to
avoid trouble. That's good for you. More people
need to think like you do =)
If You Were to Get Drunk, What Kind of Drunk Would You Be?
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Mood: Meh
Song: "Hey Mama" Black Eyed Peas
Just saw this on Caiti's blog, thought I'd fill it ut for myself. :)
LAYER ONE
Name: Cait/Caitlin
Birthplace: small cow-town in Manitoba, Canada
Current location: The same hicksville
Eyes: green/blue
Hair: blonde
Height: 5'8" - 5'9"
Righty or Lefty: Righty
Zodiac Sign: Capricorn (fishgoat, lol)
LAYER TWO
Your heritage: half-Hungarian/quarter-En glish/quarter Scotish
Your weakness: Needing everything to always be perfect (it screws up everything, trust me)
Your fears: Death
Your perfect pizza: Hawaiian or pepperoni
Goal you'd like to achieve: To have a real meaning in life
LAYER THREE
Your thoughts first waking up: Time or day it is
Your best physical feature: Eyes, I think - I love my eye colour :)
Your bedtime: I aim for 10:30 on weekdays, but that never happens. On weekends, usually around 3am, lol
Your most missed memory: Not quite sure...
LAYER FOUR
Pepsi or Coke: coke
McDonald's or Burger King: Ugh, neither. How gross.
Single or group dates: Wouldn't know.
Adidas or Nike: Nike. Most all my athletic stuff is Nike, hehe.
Chocolate or vanilla: Chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: Cappuccion - more sweet.
LAYER FIVE
Smoke: Never
Cuss: Eh, sometimes, if something/someone's making me mad.
Sing: When no one's around
Take showers daily: Of course.
Have a crush: Umm, well yeah
Think you've been in love: Nope, but one day I hope.
Want to go college: College or University, yeah.
Want to get married: When the times comes, yes.
Believe in yourself: Occasionally
Get motion sickness: Never
Think you're attractive: Not really, no.
Think you're a health freak: Sometimes
Get along with your parents: Hah! Not exactly.
Like thunderstorms: Yeah, they're creepy and so cool at the same time.
LAYER SIX
- in the past month...
Gone to the mall: Yep, of course.
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: Ugh, I've had probably 2 my whole life - hate the things.
Eaten sushi: No, but I wanna try it someday.
Been on stage: If you count in front of the class
Gone skating: No, can't ice skate - rollerblading I love though, but can't do that 'cause there's snow on the ground.
Made homemade cookies: Not in the last month - ask Geoff though, lol.
Gone skinny dipping: No, never, lol.
Dyed your hair: Almost did last week, but the hair appointment wasn't long enough. Hopefully soon though.
Stolen anything: Not that I know of.
LAYER SEVEN
- ever..
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: Nope
Been called a tease: Nope
Got beaten up: Nope
LAYER EIGHT
Age you hope to be married: Before I'm 35
Number and name of children: Maybe 2; Starr, Casey, Riley for possible names.
Dream wedding: All glass/silver/white with bright red roses. Not very many people, and on a warm summer night under the stars.
How do you want to die: In my sleep so I really wouldn't know.
Where do you want to attend college: Preferably out in BC
Dream job: Architect, graphic designer, or maybe director.
Country you want to visit: Italy
LAYER NINE
- In a guy/girl...
Best eye color: Green or blue
Best hair color: Anything from black to brown to blonde.
Short or long hair: Kinda longish - but not scrubby, just...sexy... (hehe, see: Tom Welling)
Height: Taller than me... 5'10+
Best weight: Average and fairly muscleur (not overly so though, ick)
Best clothing: Not scrubby - something clean looking and relaxed, lol
Best first date location: Under the stars in an open field or something all alone.
Best first kiss location: Same as above.
LAYER TEN
Number of drugs taken illegally: None, unless you count alcohal.
Number of people I could trust with my life: Umm, like 3 or 4
Number of piercings: One in each ear.
Number of tattoos: None, and never will.
Number of times my name's been in the news: Uhh, like 3, lol
Number of scars on my body: Maybe 1 or 2
Number of things in my past that I regret: No use living a life of regrets, so pretty much none.
~~~~~THESE ARE A FEW OF MY FAVORITE THINGS~~~~
TIME OF DAY: Late night under the stars/ or sunrise/ or sunset
SHOPPING STORE: Bluenotes and SportChek
WEATHER: Warm and comfortable. Sun shining in the sky with a few clouds just for contrast.
SEASON: Summer
DAY CLOTHES: Pants and shirts
NIGHT CLOTHES: t-shirt/pants or shorts
CAR: 2003 Mitsubishi Eclipse Spyder
MOVIE: Driven, A Walk To Remember, Identity, Shawshank Redemption
BOOK: "The Hunger" Marsha Forchuk Skrypuch
FOOD: Ceasar salad
RELATIVE: My aunt Linda
ANIMAL: Penguins!
TYPE OF MUSIC: Alternative rock
HERO: No one
TALK SHOW: The Sharron Osbourne Show
CANDY: Jolly Rancher
HOLIDAY: Christmas
KIND OF UNDERWARE: Uh, hello - no way
~~~~~WHO ARE YOU?~~~~~
CAR I DRIVE: Ask me again in 8 months, hehe
BIGGEST FEAR: Being alone all my life.
MY JOB: Nothing yet
RELIGION: Christian, but I don't go to church or anything.
CLEAN SHAVEN OR HAIRY? (APPLIES TO BOTH GUYS AND GIRLS): Umm, clean shaven?
DO YOU LIKE YOUR BODY? Could be better
FAVORITE PHYSICAL FEATURE(ON YOURSELF): Eyes (didn't I already answer that?)
WHAT STATE ARE YOU IN? Uh, living in Canada here buddy.
SIBLINGS NAMES AND AGES: Kirk, age 12
GREATEST PLEASURE: Uh... no idea
HAPPIEST WHEN: Receiving oeople's gratitude/encouragement/a cceptance(that don't happen often though)
SADDEST WHEN: Friends are mad or too busy/I just argued with my parents/bored
MARRIED? HOW MANY TIMES?: Hello, I'm 14
DIVORCED? Hell no
DRINK? yeah, occasionally
SMOKE? Never
DRUGS? Not yet, anyways
WHAT OTHER PEOPLE LIKE ABOUT YOU: That I'm friendly and down to earth
PARENTS STILL MARRIED? Yeah
LIVE IN A HOUSE OR APARTMENT: House
LIFES GOALS: To have a meaning in the world.
PET PEEVES: People leaving water running; people being really slow
~~~ MORAL DILEMMAS~~~
WOULD YOU? YES OR NO.
TURN IN A FRIEND OR FAMILY MEMBER IF THEY HAD MURDERED SOMEONE AND CAME TO YOU FOR HELP: Depends who they murdered
GIVE A STRANGER MONEY IF THEY ASKED: uh, maybe. Depends how much I had on me.
PICK UP A FRIEND FROM A BAR AT 2 A.M. IF THEY WERE DRUNK AND YOU HAD JUST GONE TO BED..KNOWING YOU HAD TO BE TO WORK FOR 6 A.M.: Depends on the friend
GET A READING DONE FROM A TAROT OR PALM READER OR PHYSIC AND TAKE IT SERIOUSLY: I'd do it - not sure about taking it too seriously though.
HELP AN ENEMY IF THEY WERE IN DIRE NEED: Depends what they needed.
STOP A MAN FROM BEATING ON HIS WOMAN IF IT MEANT YOUR SAFETY WOULD BE IN DANGER: Uh, depends on who the woman is, I guess - I dunno on that one.
STOP TO HELP AT A CAR ACCIDENT: If there isn't already a ton of people there, yeah.
HELP THE ASSISTED SUICIDE OF A LOVED ONE IF THAT WAS THEIR WISH: No - in my opinion that counts as murder (we even talked about that in English, lol)
PICK UP A STRAY ANIMAL THAT HAS JUST GOTTEN HIT BY A CAR AND TAKE IT TO THE VET KNOWING YOU WOULD HAVE TO PAY: Eeek, I don't know...
DISOWN OR TREAT YOUR FRIEND, PARENT OR CHILD DIFFERENTLY IF YOU FOUND OUT THEY WERE GAY? Heck no. Gay people are people too, they have feelings just like us straight people.
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Alrighty then, lol:
What's your life as a movie? Made by
Sara
Hmm, guess I can live with this:
Neutral:
Harmony and balance is key. You don't look at the
world in a negative or positive way and you'll
never judge or assume a situation- you just
look at the facts. People like you are peaceful
and accepting.
=http://www.saradover.comMade by
Sara
What color do you see the world in?
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hehe, okie dokie:
Big Grin; :-D applaud my award-winning smile
This quiz was made by Sara (www.saradover.com)
What facial expression are you?
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Aww!! That kid is SO cute!, lol:
Sidekick; Not recognized like the hero is, but you
know he couldn't have done it on his own.
Without you, the world would be in ashes. Yay
for you.
=http://www.saradover.comMade by
Sara
Who do you play in in a typical movie?
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Cool! Okay, would've rather been one of them nobles though, lol:
Your creativty and craftsmenship doesn't come from
nowhere. You used to be an artisan in your past
life, painting murals, sculpting statues, and
crafting wood for more noble people.
Who were you in your past life?
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Lol, yeah - ya'll better watch! I might come kick your butt (though I honestly can't, how pathetic). Yeah, k, this quiz lies, lol . . . at least I think so:
Psycho. You are overwhelmed by anger. You may even
hate the world and everything in it and you
believe revenge is the way of the world. An eye
for an eye.
How Emotional Are You?
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k, i'm done.
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Just found this one on a piece of crumpled paper in my bag now. Pretty gay, right? It ryhmes too well, it sounds too choppy, no emotion, no meaning. But it fits my mood now. That's a good thing, right? No, it's not. It never is.
[b][u]Expressions[/u][/b]
As I stand here I hear them
The voices wailing on
Their shouts are getting louder
Can't wait 'til I am gone.
Their glares have an unknown meaning
What did I do wrong?
Can't express myself in my own way
Can't say it in a song.
It all started with that one action
The one I truly regret
I'll wish that day never happened
And blame it on a bet.
Why do they hate me for my choices?
The ones that were mine to make
No one understands this pressure
That keeps building 'til I break.
I'm sorry world for disturbing you
I never meant to fail
I didn't mean to cause such difference
Just let me please prevail.
-Cait, 9/3/03
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Mood: Meh, I dunno. I'm cold - so cold.
Song: "The Noose" A Perfect Circle
Firstly, A Perfect Circle. My latest cool band discovery. Yeah, so they're music is a little depressing and kinda creepy, but I love it. Must be something to do with how I've been feeling lately. School is alright, because I'm around my friends and all, and there's usually something cool going on. Though I did find out I failed my first test ever today. Advanced Math on Polynomials. Stupid things can go straight to hell. This was the test I had thought I had a 90 on, but I actually found out today I read the wrong column on the paper - It's like 44. Great - good thing my parents won't find out ... for a little while anyway. They're so pissed off at me lately. My dad especially. He got some best salesmen for NAPA throughout Saskatchewan, Manitoba, and North-western Ontario, and just because I'm not making a big deal out of it like he is, he's angry. He got mad at me for listening to the radio, he got mad at me for being in the kitchen to make my lunch for today, he yelled at me for watching "his" tv for an hour, in which 50 of those minutes he wasn't even home, he said that I shouldn't be allowed to use "his" tv, "his" computer, "his" vcr, and that if I were to buy myself a dvd player, that it'd be "his" too because it's in "his" house. He doesn't even give a damn that I had to miss hanging out with my friends a couple times to burn him him three CD's (in which I really, really wanted to use those discs for myself) that he doesn't even give a damn about anyway - he had to play some good music at his stupid party he had the other night here. And okay, so there's a ton of other problems with him, but I'm not going to say anymore, because - hell, I know I'm being pathetic. No one cares about what's going on with me. If anyone is actually reading this (though I doubt anyone is), I know you'll all have you're own problems. Just my stupid mind, ranting and raving while people are suffering and dying with other horrible ordeals that can't even compare to the weak, stupid problems that a teenager like myself would be going through.
You know what, enough. No more stupid whiney entires in this blog. How pathetic. How weak. No one gives a damn anyways - it's wasted time. Hah, what time. I have nothing better to do. My life is meaningless, pointless, dull, boring, filled with hopes and dreams that will never be fulfilled.
Quizes though - those seem to be fun lately. Fun seeing how a computer-programmed questionaire thinks of my personality. I think I'll go find some more quizes...
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Mood: Bored
Song:"3 Libra's" A Perfect Circle
K, I'm really bored so I just wrote this. It isn't very good, but I'm so sick of this damn cold weather and this stupid dull town. I hate winter - but man, it's not even winter yet. It's fall! And it's freezing!
[b][u]Trapped In The Storm[/u][/b]
The winds are fierce
Pushing me down
The ice is chilling
Death without a sound.
I'm lost in the white
As the storm rages on
The cold is killing me
It's lasting too long.
Can't escape the danger
Of all impending doom
Trapped and alone
Help must please come soon.
I dream of a better place
Where life will go so well
Perfection would be reality
And I could escape this hell.
It will all be in the past
Only a distant memory
Just waiting for the time
When I can then break free.
[i]-Cait 11/1/03[/i]
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Dolphin, warm water... see, I do not belong here on the farmland with 8 months of snow and friggid cold.
Your element is Water. You are a deep person and a
good communicator. Incredibably loving and
loyal when your trust is gained and you are
fairly mature.Myterious to the utmost water is
in everything. One can be an Ocean or a river
but nobody truly knows you.
What's your element
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Creepy how much I completely agree with this one:
Morpheus
?? Which Of The Greek Gods Are You ??
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Uh, right:
You have somewhat good taste. Not too bad, not too
good. You're just stuck in the middle.(plz
vote 4 quiz-bottom of pg.)
Do you have good taste?
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Okay - kinda thought it'd be a much higher number than 10. Hell, I think I've already done 10:
Umm, you might consider suicide maybe a total of
about 10 times in your life. You think that
sometimes life can become too stressful and you
just wanna leave it all behind and die. But
don't worry. It will pass in time. I hope you
liked the quiz! Please Rate!!! `-)
Are you going to commit suicide? (PLEASE RATE) `-)
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Meh?:
You just happen to be a serial killer. Hey
whatever you want to do with your life. Just
one thing... Don't get caught.Please rate my
quiz.
What's Wrong With You
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Sure...
Your Heart is Red
What Color is Your Heart?
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lmao, hey cool!
WOW you're not a loser at all! I'm sorry I'm only
friend with losers like myself!
Are you a loser?
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lmao, is this a good or bad thing? FYI: I am NOT goth:
Congratulations! You have an understanding of the
goth culture!
A True Goth Quiz
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lol, dear lord. This one rates high in contrast with the previous quiz (Goth one):
???What Kind Of Angel R You???( Anime Pics )
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lol, so why have I never had a boyfriend before?
-Perfect- You're the perfect girlfriend. Which
means you're rare or that you cheated :P You're
the kind of chick that can hang out with your
boyfriend's friends and be silly. You don't
care about presents or about going to fancy
placed. Hell, just hang out. You're just happy
being around your boyfriend.
What Kind of Girlfriend Are You?
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Sure, considering there was only 2 questions, not sure how they got that:
Hawaii
What state are you?
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Is her name even spelt right?:
Cameron Diaz
Which celebrity is most like u?
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Yay!
You are the nicest person.If someone needs you your
there if someone is feeling down you help them
out you are a great friend
How good of a friend are you?
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K, I'll stop there - this post is way too long.
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| 11.01.03 (7:26 pm) [edit] |
K, Geoff wanted me to do this. 6% hehehe!!! I'm not a geek!, lol.
| You are 6% geek |  OK, so maybe you ain't a geek. You do, at least, show a bit of interest in the world around you. Either that, or you have enough of a sense of humor to pick some of the sillier answers on the test. Regardless, you're probably a pretty nifty, well-rounded person who gets along fine with people and can chat with just about anyone without fear of looking stupid or foolish or overly concerned with minutiae. God, I hate you. |
Take the Polygeek Quiz at Thudfactor.com
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"'Twixt truth and madness lies but a sliver of a stream"
-Hamlet, Shakespeare
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"I have to remind myself that some birds aren't meant to be caged. Their feathers are just too bright. And when they fly away, the part of you that knows it was a sin to lock them up DOES rejoice. Still, the place you live in is that much more drab and empty that they're gone."
-The Shawshank Redemption
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"We all start off wanting to change the world, but in the end the only thing that matters is changing one person's world."
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